I'll tell you what I want, what I really, really, want.

After meeting with the florist for the wedding today my mom complimented me on how I really seemed to know what I wanted. Now, I know this kind of sounds like a strange compliment, but it was a really significant affirmation for me to receive. You see, I am miss indecisive, or at least, I was. Honestly, about a year ago, if you asked me to tell you with complete certainty what I wanted or to make a even a small decision, I probably would have shied away from it saying, "I don't even know what I want."

Not anymore.

Ok, so I'm still not the first one in a group to make a suggestion or offer an opinion about an activity, and decisions, especially big ones, still stress me out; but I think I've learned a lot in the past year, heck, in the past 2 months, about what I really want. I've also learned how to effectively convey my opinion and to own it and not apologize for having an opinion.

This is one of the amazing things wedding planning has taught me: that I do know myself, I do know what I hope and wish for, and if I dig deep down into myself I can discover it and even work to make it a reality.